Hope, Cries, Joy and Sundae. huhu.

Waaa. Without realizing it, I have already gone through two of my cruelest exams for this exam. Alhamdulillah, I don't think I sucked that bad for the exam. Hoping and praying for at least an A minus. Huhu. Well, what has passed will not come back. Therefore I'm only looking forward to my last two exams which is Management this friday and Malaysian Studies on next friday. I can only do my best and the rest is just prayers to the Almighty that owns all the knowledge in this world. Huhu. Let us strive on kay. Good luck and all the best guys.

The Light Within My Darkness

The cold air has taken me once again, alone in front of a steel desk accompanied by the thick black book filled with words from scholars that nobody recognized their face, only remembered by their name and contribution to this hard cold world. As I sit there buried in the cold hearted books and notes, I fill myself with knowledge for the sake of 2.30pm 20th May 09. My head is hurting me but there is no stopping now. The clock is ticking as kind or as harsh as it may be, not waiting for anybody but its creator. I grew restless as I received no guidance for this next test. Studying blindly referring to past year papers that I have. Worried as I am, as restless as I am, filled with doubts and questions in my head, it all disappears in a blink of an eye. What magic, what bliss, what gentleness. Thank you my reminder, my supporter, my guardian, my savior, my sundae. huhu.

In the heat of the moment.

Well as you may have read in the newspaper, various parts of Malaysia is increasing in temperature. I don't deny that we here in cyberjaya also experiencing this phenomenon. Well, may it be hot or cold, study must live on. huhu. Wish me luck for the finals alrite. huhu. All in all, as long as I have my sundae, I should be fine though. huhu.

wow. how long has it been? lol.

Its been a long while since I have written in my blog. huhu. Well, its been quite a semester at that. Scholarship interviews, presentation, camps, events, so many happenings and so little time. The end of semester is just around the corner bringing the final exams along with it. Hopefully all of us can pass with flying colors. Huhu.

New Ray of Hope

Last two week I received an email from a sender that I did not recognized. So curiously I opened the email and found myself a confirmation email on whether or not I would like to attend a scholarship talk that is going to be held at MMU last wednesday. I was excited and so I replied immediately. So the fatefull day arrived sooner than I expected. The speaker was Mr Ajlil, fro the Khazanah Nasional Berhad. After hearing the talk, it was clear to me that this would be one of the elite scholarship as it requires you to mantain a CGPA of 3.50 at least. Furthermore, upon receiving their scholarship, you would also be trained during your free time(holiday time) in the ways of the management by mentors who are top notch in the business arena. I am really hoping to be a part of this because its a very good opportunity to ease my parent's burden and also to gain valueble experience for a successful career path. Wish me luck ok guys. huhu. Chowz.

INNOCENCE-AVRIL LAVINGE

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great!
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

Finally driving =)

Yesterday, I went with my driving instructor Uncle Robert to a highway and started learning the basic of how to drive. We started at an empty road near the Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia(UIAM) in Kuantan. As a total newbie in driving, of course I was nervous, in fact, nervous does not explain enough of what I felt. The engine died on me a few times and I had problems in knowing when to shift the gears and handling the clutch was a mystery. I was worried sick and like hell. But as I got encouragement from Uncle Robert, I slowly but surely got better bit by bit. I made a few rounds at the highway until my time was up. He gave me useful tips to rid of my nervousness at the end of the day and took me back home. That was my first time and I was already driving on a highway with cars zooming to their individual destination. Not bad huh. That night I kept dreaming about the day I had. Today, I woke up refresh from having slept early and was very excited for my second day of driving. When the clock struck 10 o'clock, the instructor arrived at my front gate. We went to the same spot and started. I guess some positive thinking does help as I seem to be better than yesterday. The engine did not die on me. HAHAHA! I was ecstatic of the improvement. I drove away at 50+km per hour until we reach the mouth of the city of Kuantan. Now I am driving in the city already. I start losing my cool. "So many cars..." I thought. I drove the car until we reached the Stadium Darul Makmur area and Uncle Robert took over. What relief I felt. I guess second day and already driving in the city was too much for me today. Well anyways, driving itself is very new for me and I consider myself to be doing good at my own pace. Keep up the positive thinking and I should be driving with license in no time soon. =)

TRAINS AND RAILROADS....

I have always been one that watches the train moving along to its unknown destination. A train that has picked up many passengers along the passing sands of time dropping them to variety of places. Some destination took only a short while, some for years and some even took forever. And at each stop, we can see the many types of reaction from each individual whom have ridden the train and were departing from it. Anger, sadness, broken, betrayed, envy, distrust, all of these were some of the characteristics portrayed by them. Some even fall out and did not bother to rise again. Such impact, such sorrow. Emphatic feeling filled me and my eyes, those poor souls. And at an unexpected turn of event, I found myself buying a ticket for partaking the journey. As I stepped on board the mysterious train, it felt warm and happy inside my cold shackled heart. I had the best time of my life and I wish it never ends as I am grateful for the change in my life it had brought me. I was ready to give anything to stay on that train but maybe I was ill destined that after a few months, it was finally my stop for the ride. Anger filled every living parts of me, frustration became my pal, and tears were the lullabies that put me to sleep. I was once again a bystander watching from the sidelines regretting the first step I made onto the train......

Merdeka jua akhirnya!!!!

Exam is finally finish! I am free!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wooooooooohoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! (Running like mad)

When you wish upon a star

"We could not careless about the things we have done but we often regret the things that we did not do." A phrase that was given to me in a seminar that I joined recently. Thinking about it, I realize that its true actually. Things you have done is already a part of you but things that you miss out on often comes back to haunt you. Hopefully this is not the case with my first exam preparation. All the best, be the best among the best. Wa caya sama lu!!!!!

The Crucial Morning!!!

Last nite was spent silently as both my roommate has gone back home. And as I lay in bed trying to sleep, my doubts of oversleeping kept haunting me. Alhamdulillah I dozed off and woke up at 6.30 am at the sound of my alarm clock. Took a freezing bath and went for the subuh prayer at the surau at our hostel. Its my first exam since I've transfered to cyberjaya campus. I am growing a bit nervous since my exam is only in a few hours time. I will set out for the war and I will come back as a victor. I do hope that I can score to boost up my morale for my whole study here in MMU Cyberjaya. All the best guys!! Gambatte!!!!

When I listen to a song.

When first listening to a song, what do you pay attention first too? For me, I would listen to the background music and if it is catchy then I would pay attention to the lyrics. =). Someday I would like to write my own song, about what I've been through and what I'm grateful for. Hopefully I can compose the background music for it too. huhu.

MY FIRST BLOG

Hari exam hampir tiba, tapi tangan rasa gatal nak menulis. Semalam diri ni rasa tension sbb masalah hati lalu bermulalah adventure yang giler. Aku pergi ker tempat duduk bahagian track field di MMU cyberjaya lalu aku perform secara solo di atas tempat duduk VIP. Haha. Hatiku terasa girang seketika (syok sendiri). Dendanganku disaksikan oleh dua org foreigner yang sedang asyik berjogging di dalam kegelapan dan kedinginan malam. Lalu adventure ku diteruskan dgn tawaf sekali mengelilingi MMU cyberjaya. letih gak ah tapi bila dah mula mesti nak habiskan. huhu. Selepas itu aku pulang kebilik n bersalin dan bersiap utk ke library bg mempersiap diri bagi hari exam. Ajaib sungguh malam semlm. Mungkin akan aku ulangi sbb rasa best la plak. haha.